This past wknd I was in NY with my best friends...minus one cuz she had to work...but of course she was there in spirit :-) almost felt like sex in the city except none of us actually live in NYC lol
Well...for those that have seen the first movie of sex in the city...u know that Jennifer Hudson's character goes to NY in search for love (the main reason Carey loves NY besides the fashion lol) just to end up finding love out of the city and falling back in love with and old love...nothing compared to my story but I like to think so lol
My story fell in love with NY very first time we went on a family trip many many moon's ago...since then my dream has always been to live in NY...I wanna say...11 yrs later...moved to NY for 2 yrs came back and never felt like I've been living my life...I'm not going to complain because I'm happy with how certain things are going but other areas *ahem* LOVE is where I seem to be at a stand still...or just lost...or all effd up in the game lol...needless to say most of u know my story I fell in love with the dude I planned on marrying but s*** doesn't work out the way it should...but u know...life it's trial and error...or I think it is lol OK back to the point...as I walked through Times Square today I saw where I can honestly say I found the love of my life and ever since have left my heart there....it's a sentimental thing for me. The times that I go...I pass this one specific spot and a few tears run down my face (not this time...I held back like a trooper lol) and remember or try to remember lol when I first met him lol crazy right?!? It's just one of those moments that I have embedded in my brain and can remember like 7-8 years back meeting this dude and saying wow he likes me?!? Lol (picture wherever it posts is where we met...love at first site...kinda does exists...2 wks after we met...we were "dating" lol)
Long story short cuz I can go on for hours...I let go of my love and never got my heart back...I go back to NY not to get it back but to remember that one moment in my life where I knew what love was...*sigh as I cry and not wipe the tears away lol* as I was in the shower and no I wasn't crying lol but I was thinking...
My name is Martha Yancor
My drug if choice: S dot...
How to kick the habit...still working on it lol
Finding love...don't need it...working on me to help work on others
I know my post doesn't seem to make much sense but it's something I had to get off my chest...for someone who likes to keep most of my crap to myself...I find blogging about it helps me and keeps me sane lol
Hasta la pasta my dudes :-)
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